This email was sent 1 day after 4th and final escape, and before he found other victims through dating apps.
This is a manipulation tactic used to get victim to drop charges and not pursue accountability for his violence. The statement "There's a beautiful man inside me. I'm certain you know that, but I never let you experience it for more than a few days, if that. I deeply regret that." Is by design, this is how the trauma bond works, the violence, intimidation and terrorizing with intermittent "kindness" is calculated and premeditated.
"I should've honored your truths. Instead, I doubted you, and interfered with your
friendships, and caused you a great deal of unnecessary pain and disappointment."
A common tactic used by narcissists is to "demand evidence", then ignore it when it's presented and continue to demand proof that is impossible for anyone to obtain.
Regardless of credible data presented by their targets, narcissists will repeatedly deem it as "irrelevant" and continue to demand unattainable proof. The purpose of which, is to dismiss any and all legitimate information or actual evidence. This style of communication is used to distract from the fact the narcissists fail to present any credible information themselves. It also keeps their targets scurrying and frustrated, giving narcissists the
illusion of having the upper hand.